As always, my life just won’t move on if I am not hurting anyone.  Why can’t I simply live and be happy with the person I choose to be with?  I don’t want to hurt anyone but how come it seems inevitable for me?  What’s fuckin’ wrong with me?!

Or what’s fucking wrong with these people?  I loved him and he didn’t want me then.  I gave everything I could have ever given and he was not over his ex.  Now, that life has taken us into different paths and I want different things, he wants me back?  What a cruel, cruel world!!!

And to think that he is one of the last ones I ever wanna hurt and it hurts me that he is hurting.  God,  whatever I do, I am bound to hurt someone.  What should I do?